Festering Sorrow

FOURTYFIVE45 questions .. i can do that ;D

2008-12-28T19:15:00.005+08:00

FOURTYFIVE45 questions .. i can do that ;D
its actually less thn 45 . LOL . you see properly . anw, blog it once you've seen this(:

1.Where is the person you need most right now?
* idk ='(
2.What's your initial?
* K
3.What's your second name ?
* KIKI
4.Where will you be 12 hours from now?
* idk, i dont care .
5.Is it easy for others to make you feel intimidated?
* idk .
6.Do you know what you are going to wear tomorrow?
* clothes .
7.Where is your girlfriend/boyfriend??
* my girlfriends .. i miss them !
8.Are you on a desktop or laptop?
* desktop
9.Do you cry easily?
* nope .
10.Can you make yourself cry?
* yeahh ;D
11.Who was driving the last time you were in a car?
* my uncle .
12.When you hear crystal, first came to mind is?
* shiny shiny .
13.Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?
* maybe .
14.Does anyone know your password to your friendster besides you?
* my sister .
15.Have you ever had your nails done?
* yeahh .
16.Have you ever called a guy/girl?
* yeahh .
17.Have you ever kissed someone whose name starts with letter C?
* nope . cant imagine .
18.Last person talked on the phone with?
* hazeeeekk .
19. What role does that person play in your life?
* my friend .
20.Are you easily confused?
* always .
21.Do you think you would make a good husband/wife??
* if my husband's good, thn i'll be a good wife(:
22.What are you doing right now?
* this thing .
25.Have you ever liked someone who treated you like crap?
* nope .
26.Ever felt proud of your friend?
* yeahh .
28.What is the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
* idk .
29.Do you fall for people easily?
* i dont want to .
30.Does everything happen for a reason?
* yeahh .
31.Have you ever dated someone more than once?
* wadd that mean ?
32.Who have you texted the most in the last 24 hours?
* munir, munir and munir .
33.Last thing you got in the mall?
* clothes .
36.When was the last time you saw the person you really want to see always?
* hehehhh . SHH .
37.What are you listening to right now?
* *can you see me now*
38.How has the weekend been?
* idk .
39.What do you like most about the person you love?
* i just love them .
40.Is there something you wish you could tell someone but can't?
* yeahhh .
41.What do you consider as the biggest turn off?
* back-talking and dirtying ppl's names
42.Why did your last relationship end?
* i wanted it to end ='(
43.What do you think of gay and lesbos?
* i want to be just like them ;D
44.Have you ever had a feeling for a gay/lesbian?
* idk .
45.Who is your favorite person to have a serious conversation with?
* idk .

LALALA

2008-12-28T15:28:00.003+08:00

"Cause someday, someone's gonna love me
The way I wanted you to need me
Someday, someone's gonna take your place
One day, I'll forget about you
You'll see, I won't even miss you"

Ytd was so boring but it was fun spotting houses among th trees while in th car . hahahh . Anyway, I sprayed my hair too much yesterday that it became tangled at th end of th day . I went to wash my hair, thinking it would wash away all th stickiness .. but NO, it just became a wet, sticky and tangled mess . I had to gently free all th tangles and I think I lost plenty of my long pieces of hair . My hair is layered and so only th bottom part is long . And th long hair is very little . I regret fer having that hair cut . My hair was actually very long, thick and bushy . I like that . Now it's extremely thin and it feels like I could go bald anytime someone pulls my hair . I want to perm my hair and get th volume back . GRR .

2008-12-23T21:31:00.002+08:00

"Do you still have doubts that having faith makes any sense ?"

MAO

2008-12-13T13:18:00.005+08:00

I just think that Mao is kiyuuut . Don't you think so too ? xD
And that's my sister over there . Not me .

I forgot to mention that I switched th monitor this morning . YAY ! Now it's not dark and blue2 anymore . I can edit my photos in peace . Finally ! hahahhh . My back is aching . GRR ! Someone owes me a massage . You know who you are . I knw you knw, bt public dont knw ;DD

memories

2008-12-13T11:09:00.010+08:00

"Choking
Back emotion
I try to keep on hoping
For a way;
A reason for us both to
Come in
Close"

I woke up so early this morning and couldn't go back to sleep so I decided to write in my diary . I really had nothing much to write about since I've chosen to forget him . HAHAHH . My diary has been all about how I felt about him . GAHH ! I still have the footage of me and him in my mind . But never mind .. Leona Lewis says that it'll all get better in time . I believe her . Now that I've decided to forget him, I have nothing to write about in my diary .. cuz the feeling's not there . I don't feel anything these days .. besides being happy and over reactive . I like that . *SMILE SMILE* But how do you put happiness in words ? I'm always happy and when I want to pen down that feeling, I go blank . GOOGOOGAAGAAHH . The only thing on my mind would be "MALCHIK GAY, MALCHIK GAY" . FYI, it's the TATU song . MALCHIK means boy and GAY means .. you know wadd it means . It's about this girl who falls in love with this guy and that guy is gay and he has a boyfriend . So the girl just wishes that she could be in that guy's boyfriend's place instead . If you get what I mean . If you don't, then just forget it . Anw, IDK why I like the song so much . Maybe it's because of the catchy beat . AHHHH ! I just remembered that there is four more days to skewl ! EE ! I HATE SKEWL . ouuuh, and it's five more days to twilight . I want to watch it but I have no money . HAHHH ! And sorry for the sudden change of topic . Little thoughts in my mind just like to pop out at random timese . BLAHHBLAHH . Anyway, while being unable to fall back asleep, I browse through a few reminiscence of my past . I found a lovely drawing too, which was done by me . It's a fairy and she's cute(x

HURHH . Friends, they've all disappeared . PUHH ! Am I so bad that I've chased them away ? It's so weird that friends who aren't that close to me are coming closer, while my closest friends are getting far apart . Well, not all actually . BIG-MOMMA still LOVES me ! ;DD
And Munn, I wonder when she's coming back from Batam . I miss her alot . I've not heard from her eversince she went overseas to study . She told me that she'll be away for only a month .. bt it's over a month nw . She left Singapore in October and now is December . Don't tell me that her dad has decided that she stays there . AHH !
Friendship isn't about whom we have known the longest, who came first or who cares the best, it's about who came and NEVER LEFT

"I wanna pull you closer, closer, closer, closer .
But you leave me feeling frozen ."

Russians xD

2008-12-11T21:32:00.002+08:00

YULIA VOLKOVA & LENA KATINA [TATU]

I just LOVE LOVE LOVE them ! Their song just inspires me . The words they use in their songs are so incredible . It's very descriptive . Plus they are Russian xD
I like Russians . They're beautiful people and the way they talk is so kiyuuut ! AHHHH ! There's this russian singer that I think is kiyuut . He can pull a high pitch . It's so rare to see a guy do that . GAHHH ! And he's so attention seeking . Look at his face while he's singing . He'll do that eyebrow thing and look in the corner of his eyes . It's so .. SO SO ! hahahhh . SO difficult to describe in words xP
kayy, I'll stop . I'm not obsessed . I just admire him xD

Going Online Is Boring

2008-12-02T10:05:00.002+08:00

Read the post title . Agreed ? Going online helps me kill time by chatting, fs and read blogs . It's always the same old routine . Even my friends does that . Last time, I used to play neopets then it got replaced by runescape . HAHAHHH . Next it was Habbo Hotel and afterwards, The Sims 2 . Not an online game, but it was still fun to play . After that, came MapleStory and Audition . And now I've gotten sick and tired of playing it . I feel like installing The Sims 2 again so I can start playing it .

Untitled

2008-11-29T07:56:00.004+08:00

Yesterday, my new comp was supposed to be ready, but the internet wasn't working well. It gets disconnected a few minutes after it worked and would connect again, and disconnect a minute later. GAHH ! And I want a new graphic card which has atleast 32 RAM so I can install my The Sims 2 and the extension packs. I have been dying to play the game again because it's so boring to friendster and chat with nothing else to do. There aren't so many good games on the internet. So internet is actually boring. I can't find anything to do online. So I'll just friendster and chat till my back ache. Anyway, my dad gave me a new diary(:
I don't need a new diary right now because my current diary still has half of the book left. I right alot don't I? I bought that diary in September. It's half used in 3 mths. HAHAHH ! And that quite explains why I dont usually blog. I have everything unblogged, in my diary. Yeahh, I dont like exposing my feelings, secrets, problems and rants to anyone else except ME ME ME ! I only tell my opinions and things that happened, in my blog because I don't see why people should know my problems. It's not that they couldn't help. They can .. but I'm just not finding help. I'd rather whine, moan and brag about it on my own and deal with it later than look into the situation. HAHAHHH ! Well, people would usually say that I'm just bottling up my problems and that it's not good and yaadeedaa but it's well ... ME ! ;DD
I just dont want people to sympathize me by sharing all my problems with them . nopenope, dont like it . I remember letting one of my friends read my diary and she almost cried . hahahhh . see ? xD

TWILIGHT ! December 18 in cinemas
19 more days to Twilight. I can't wait ! xD

Blythe

2008-11-25T15:22:00.004+08:00

Blythe are so cute . I didnt know that they had drawstrings to move their eyes to the left and right . I knew about Blythe only when I was in Primary Five . LOL . Their eyes caught my eye xP
They're eyes are so huge and so cute . Awhh, I want my own collection of Blythe . Btw, they sell Blythe at The Heeren . I'm going there to check them out ;DD
I'm sure it's going to be expensive since they're dolls for collection . Here's some addreses where you can buy Blythe in Singapore :

Action City, 260 Orchard Road, #05-k1/k2/k3 The Heeren. Tel 67387253
Dollz inc, 501 Orchard Road, #02-20 Wheelock Place
Simply Toys, 14 Scotts Road, #01-26 Far East Plaza
Earth X, Blk 3c River Valley Road, #02-25/26 The Cannery Clarke Quay

I'll continue blogging afterwards . HAHAHS !

boredd

2008-11-24T18:38:00.010+08:00

I want to go out with big-momma . WOOHHHH .. it's so boring at home . Too bad yesterday just had to rain . I had already gotten ready to go out, then BOOM ! It was such a heavy rain and the thunder and lightning seemed dangerous . I love the thunder and lightning actually ;DD
Anyway, big-momma posted those pichaas of us the other day at starbucks . GAHH ! They're so hilarious . Can't wait to candid again . It's so much fun . We had a few before this, but big-momma's iphone just went wrong and the photos went missing . Too bad, too sad . Well, so much has happened, is happening, and will be happening . Haiyy, sometimes you've got to live life the way life wants you to live it . I still miss him .. why do all good things come to an end ?

" so many times we feel like
we're lacking something in our lives
and we try to fill it with the wrong things "

I must have been such a bad sister . Gawshh .. I dont even know when my sister is upset . She had been crying over something since just now and I didnt even noticed until she told me about it . I had been busy watching tv and having a nap . I feel bad because she was always there when I was down .. and when it's her turn, I didnt even had a hint about it . URGGH ! I had been moaning about how my life was miserable that I dont even realise that others go through the same situation too . I AM SO TERRIBLE and HORRIBLE no wonder I'm so MISERABLE . GAWSHH !

I LOVE KERLI Y

HELLO

2008-10-24T17:11:00.000+08:00

Today began with the bridging programme which followed after the principal's morning yaps . Bridging programme wasn't that bad . It was similar to the normal school days, except that I'm actually listening to what is being taught than wonder in my own world . Class had a slight difference because of several empty chairs since seven of us had moved out . GAWSH ! We're all missing those people . I wonder if they miss us too . Anyway, my papers got wet because they fell in a puddle of rain water .

have faith in me(:

2008-10-23T13:14:00.002+08:00

I didnt went to school today because I was too lazy . I did went to PTM, though . Saw someone who I don't want to see, while I was in the taxi . Anyway, I'm so happy with my results but they're kind of disheartening too . HAHHS ! I was devasted when Mr Lee passed around the end-of-year examination results last week . I'd passed only one subject out of seven, which was mother tongue . However, it was shocking that I passed three subjects for the overall . On the contrary, I've been promoted to Secondary 4 Express ! I am so relieved ! HEE(x